God Wants Me To Ball...

October 7, 2017, I quit my job to pursue my passion. After months of depression and anxiety attacks, I walked into the post office on my birthday and signed my resignation papers.

That was one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make. I was so uncomfortable though. I was tired. I was about to lose my mind! I felt like I had no choice but to quit.

I just knew that quitting would magically make the panic attacks stop. I just knew quitting would allow me to gain back control over my life. Quitting would make me happy again.

BUT I was still hesitant. I was running so many scenarios in my mind. If this doesn’t work out as beautifully as I anticipated, then what?! If I can’t maintain these bills, then what?! How would I handle my baby telling me he’s hungry and I can’t afford to feed him?!

BUT then it hit me, what if it does?! What if it does work out and you get this freedom that you desire? What if this lifestyle that you’ve been dreaming about became your reality? What if you got paid to do something you love?  

So. God was shaking things up. Who was I to stop him? I had more faith than I had fear. I allowed God to guide me.

See, God puts us all here for a specific purpose. He will prepare you for that mission through hardships and failures. He will mold you and shape you to handle all the blessings he has ready to gift you with but he will test you first. He will test you to make sure you’re really prepared for all that you’re asking. He will test you so that when he does pop it off you don’t lose it all like a bad dice roll.

Success happens after the struggle. God wants you to win. God wants you to ball but God wants to make sure you’re ready first. Trust the process. Best believe when it’s time he will make you uncomfortable.

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